ArriveDerci : Tacoma, WA
rainy thoughts & clouded eyes //
the trees carry more weight here.
so do my shoulders.
as i began to tuck my things back into trunks and cases; i found myself reflecting on the space i found here and what i’ll be taking with me to the next place.
i have a certain love for the rain drenched streets and the undying smell of fresh coffee, but, i don’t feel desperate inspiration here. i found myself romanticizing my days as i pranced through city streets and sat in pretty cafes - but, i didn’t find glimpses of myself.
instead, i found unsteady anxieties around each corner, pretty people with uncertain ambitions.
much like as was screamed at me on a downtown street; i don’t belong here. i knew that long before i was told by the locals.
i’m okay with that.
so tonight, i find myself sinking into rest. releasing my inner pressure to check more and more off my list before i get back on the road. i’d rather spend my last hours here embracing a cozy space with good books & warm tea than forcing myself into spaces i don’t want to belong. boxes i don’t want to fit.
seattle will always hold a special place in my heart, and will always spark new curiosities hidden in the weighted trees. but, this world isn’t one i see myself existing in- and that’s all i needed to know.